April 19, 2004

• it's all gravy.
  she took down the label above the doorbell that they shared.

  i know that it's egotistical to think that she did this with me in mind. but when i take a step back and look at all the shit that she's had to go through since i entered her life, i'm left utterly speechless and completely humbled--no one's ever given up so much to be w/ me. it might not make any sense to you, but it means the world to me.

  the countless little things she does, which she probably isn't aware of, make me wonder what i've done to deserve her affections. it's inevitable--the issue of time, i mean. how long will i stay here? when will i leave for Australia? i'm sure she's wondered the same thing.

  the present reality we're basking in is too bright and too incredible to sour with needless open-ended questions about an unseen future. because, see, the future is the 'tomorrow' that we help create today. the future, and the answers to those questions, will come eventually--i'm just trying to make today last 24 hours.

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