July 29, 2004

• my girlfriend is super angry at me b/c i was grumpy/moody on the phone when she called me and woke me up. but i'm always like that. it doesn't matter who's calling--if i'm not fully rested, and or sedated, caller beware! but i know i hurt her feelings. at first glance, it seems like such a stupid thing to get angry about. actually, i think it's a stupid thing to get angry about, regardless of how many glances you take. but the important thing is that she was upset, and i know it's because of me. and i won't stand for that. that doesn't mean that next time i've been out to  5:30 in the AM and she calls me at 9 that i'll be pleasant and enthusiastic--i am but a man,  flawed creation of God, vulnerable to early morning irritability. it just means that i'll feel really bad about it. i think part of the reason she's angry with me is that she thinks that i don't appreciate and recognize all the things that she does for me. she couldn't be more wrong. this is, by far, the best (in all permutations of the word) relationship i've been in. and it's just that great because of her. she's absolutely amazing. she makes me think twice before dismissing the idealized notion of anything idealized. hopefully it's not a one-way thang. although, all things considered, it's doubtful that i bring anything to the table that's obviously good (minus myself, of course). we compliment each other, though, i guess: she's right, i'm wrong. she's female, i'm male, etc., etc.. summed together, the makings of a fairytale romance, wouldn't you say?

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